My Ayahuasca (In)experience

I recently participated in an ayahuasca ceremony for the first time. Disappointingly, I didn’t feel as though I had any sort of “altered” experience of any kind — spiritual or otherwise — either of the two nights. The only noticeable effect seemed to be the purging.

However, since my return I have adopted some major new habits (such as this daily blog, cooking nearly every meal, etc.), and continued improvements in my life do seem to be unfolding.

But, while it’s hard to know for sure, I’m suspecting that this is less a result of my “experience” and more a correlation to it. Upon reflection, drinking ayahuasca represents to me that I am so determined to make drastic changes in my life that I am willing to take drastic action to do so. And so, of course, I’m already vibrating at the frequency necessary to affect my life even before I’ve taken one sip.

I will definitely be back, but I can already say that I learned a lot from that weekend, not least of all that power lies in intent and action as much as — if not more than — result.

When In Doubt, Clean

Sometimes, like today, I lack the energy or mood to get anything of consequence done. It might be one of those helpless days when you feel despair for whatever reason: guilt from over-indulgence of any kind, anxiety from time wasted or feeling unproductive, etc.

The first thing I do — and am doing now — is remind myself that I’ve felt this way many times before, and every single one of these times, eventually, was followed by times of excitement, energy, productivity, and happiness. Therefore, it is natural to have down moments, so don’t get sucked into the fear that this is your lot in life. This too shall pass.

The second thing I might do is will myself to the gym to exercise, knowing that this is an immediate and guaranteed mood-booster. However, since I worked out yesterday and like to have at least one rest day, I’m skipping over this step right now.

Instead, I’m doing the third thing I normally do, which is to clean my apartment. Unless it’s one of those deep cleans you might give your bathroom or kitchen every once in awhile to restore them to a shiny condition, the surface-level cleaning I’m talking about requires very little enthusiasm and energy on my part. I can still feel despair and aimlessness while doing laundry, folding clothes, making my bed, washing dishes, putting conspicuous clutter back in its place.

And once all this is done, my mood may very well not be lifted at all. But at least I’ve now gotten something done. And when I wake up the following morning to a brand new day with new possibilities, at least now the less useful part of me of the previous day has gifted this new butterfly with a clean slate from which to operate.

The Absurdity of Outlawing Nature

In this country and many others, it can be illegal to grow, possess, or ingest things like marijuana, Psilocybin mushrooms, and peyote — even though they’re all naturally occurring phenomena. How you can logically outlaw nature I don’t quite understand. Could a sunset or the tide be made illegal? How can something natural possibly be “bad” for you?

Of course, these things aren’t inherently “bad” for you, and that’s not why they’re outlawed. The reason they’re illegal is because they’re bad for “The System” — in our case, capitalism (which, by the way, is not natural and is bad for nature and, therefore, us). Like any effective system, capitalism is self-perpetuating, which means it must weed out (pun intended) marijuana and other elements that pose a threat to it.

I’m not a conspiracy theorist who believes there are self-aware, conscious forces trying to keep the masses down — just as I’m not sure I believe Nature/The Universe/God/Infinite Intelligence/Whatever-You-Want-To-Call-It is a conscious entity with an agenda. In both cases, I believe they just are.

But just as a gene or a meme with a track record of success tends to possess the characteristics for self-preservation, so do I believe that a System, such as capitalism, that has (so far) survived centuries does so because it necessarily keeps threats to its existence at bay.

And these magical plants are, indeed, grave threats, since they strengthen our connection to nature and spirituality and the Big Picture of life, thereby lifting the veil from the illusion that capitalism or any other man-made — and, thus, inferior — system has constructed for us.

“Good” and “bad”, “right” and “wrong” — how to qualify these objectively can be difficult. I operate by the philosophy that nature and anything natural is probably “good”, and artificiality and anything unnatural is probably “bad”. Then the questions only become what is natural and what isn’t.

An Unexpected Lesson from Over-tipping

As I wrote in a post about a week ago, I’ve begun a practice in over-tipping — meaning that I now tip more than I normally would have; more than what previously felt “comfortable.” My initial objective was to foster an attitude of abundance, but I’m beginning to notice another positive result.

By charging myself a premium on convenience (e.g.: having someone serve me food rather than cooking it myself), I’m simultaneously making myself more aware of what a luxury it really is and further incentivizing myself to be less lazy and not outsource my personal responsibilities.

Not that there’s anything wrong with treating yourself. But it’s healthy to be conscious of the fact that having people serve you in various manners neither is a given nor is natural outside the context of capitalism (or some other arbitrary, socially constructed hierarchy).

On the contrary, the natural (and ideal) way to live is to serve yourself. Using meals as an example, it’s healthier because you have full knowledge of and control over what goes into your body; the skill makes you a more informed, well-rounded person; and the self-reliance builds character and gives you a sense of accomplishment.

Of course, I’m typing all of this while I enjoy a six-dollar cappuccino ($4 + $2 tip) lovingly served by my local coffee shop. But at least my 50% gratuity indeed represents exactly that: gratitude. And the total amount hurts just enough — after all, $6 could easily have been an entire meal at a fast food place — for me to treat both this cappuccino and the writing session it has fueled with the respect they deserve.

Treat Everything as Destiny

Yesterday afternoon, I headed out of my door to drive to a much-anticipated meeting in Brooklyn. However, upon reaching my car, I discovered that my front passenger side tire was completely flat from a nail puncture. I now had to deal with this problem, and it meant I would no longer be making my appointment.

I could have been annoyed. I could have replayed the events leading up to this in my head, to consider how it might have been avoided. Instead, I cheerfully treated it as destiny and went on with my day.

Whether or not any given event is truly destined is irrelevant. You can’t prove it one way or the other. But either way, what’s happening is what is — there’s no changing the present moment — so you may as well consider it destined to be. It’ll save you a lot of stress.

Maybe “The Universe” didn’t want me to make that event. Maybe “The Universe” has something better in store. Even if not, the fact that now my day has veered into an entirely unexpected direction in and of itself is cause for celebration, as therein lies adventure and discovery.

If You Want to Change Who You Are, Change How You Look

For 36 years of my life I was a boy. That’s because, with a small stature and boyish face, I looked like a boy. Therefore, I felt like a boy. Therefore, I acted like a boy.

Then I grew a beard. It started out as a curious experiment, but it surprised me. It grew to be thick and salt-and-peppery, the greys on my chin revealing age and signifying wisdom.

Now, for the first time in my life, I looked like a man. Therefore, I felt like a man. Therefore, I acted like a man. Therefore, I was a man.

This is especially enjoyable as an actor, to get to put on a new “costume” in real life and play that character. You don’t even have to perform, because when you look the part, you just become that character. You are the part.

In two weeks I’m going to Burning Man, and I’m going to try an entirely new look that I would never have even thought to try before. Who knows, maybe it’ll stick. Either way, I’ll learn something new about myself — what I am and never thought I could be, or just simply what I’m not and now know for sure.

The Purpose of Meditation

Meditation suffers from a lack of clear and simple understanding for what it is exactly you’re trying to achieve with the practice. With my (limited) experience in reading books on the topic, doing an 8-day silent meditation retreat, and becoming an almost-daily meditator, here is the purpose of meditation as I have come to understand it (so far):

The Buddha was essentially a hacker who, like Neo in The Matrix, hacked the program — known as the mind — that controls the illusion of our universe. He figured out that our thoughts are the root of all suffering. That’s because when you’re thinking:

  • you’re likely regretting a past event that no longer exists, can’t be changed, and of which your memory is inaccurate anyway, or…

  • you’re anxious about a future event that also does not (yet) exist, and likely won’t exist as you imagine anyway since the future is uncertain, or…

  • perhaps you’re ruminating on an unpleasant relationship with someone, imagining what they’re thinking about you when in fact they’re probably not thinking about you at all since people are too self-involved, and so this entire drama is unfolding entirely within the confines of your mind, or…

  • you’re swept up in a shortlist of other thoughts, all just as equally useless.

Thus, the suffering caused by our minds is needless, since thoughts are empty and meaningless (because they only exist in our head). Therefore, if one could train their mind to control their thoughts, they could end their suffering.

And that is the purpose of meditation: an exercise in mind control that, when practiced consistently over time, gradually conditions you to stave off your unproductive thought patterns. You do this by directing your attention to the present moment, the here-and-now, what is actually real before you — during meditation most commonly the breath (or another “anchor” of your preference).

As you focus on your anchor, you observe the constant influx of thoughts rushing into your mind; they’ll never stop — your mind is always latching onto something — so there’s no need to try and not think. But what you do is notice the thoughts and recognize them for what they are: just thoughts. (Contrast this from what normally happens, which is that you get absorbed by your thoughts and become unaware that you’re just thinking and disconnected from the present moment.) You simply recognize the thought, perhaps categorize it (“past thought”, “future thought”, “sound in the room”, “sensation on the skin”, etc.), and gently return to your breath or other anchor.

When practiced over the long-term, you begin to grow intimately familiar with the workings of your mind (what are the most persistent thoughts running through your head, etc.). You get better and better at immediately catching yourself in a thought before you’ve gotten consumed by it — even when not meditating — and so you can easily redirect your focus to the present moment (your driving, the music, whatever’s happening now), since you understand that to get seduced by the temptation to engage in the drama of your thought is an empty and useless endeavor that can only lead to suffering.

According to the Buddha, the different steps to enlightenment are achieved by this practice. My understanding is the first step is when you’ve practiced long enough to truly internalize the idea that whatever thought pops into your mind is nothing but a thought without any effort, and I hear that this early step is totally achievable by even a casual meditator over time (though mileage may vary).

The reason this makes you calmer, more at peace, less reactive, etc. is because the thoughts that cause emotions, expectations, anxiety, etc. no longer have control over you, and so — like Neo casually observing with detached curiosity the bullets flying past him at the end of The Matrix — you simply disengage from the threat of thoughts, rendering them impotent.

Plus, the present moment is a happy place, filled with excitement and wonder and discovery if you pay attention. Try, for instance, taking the time to savor every forkful of your yummy lunch, rather than scarfing it down while your mind is elsewhere. Now you’re savoring life.

Interestingly enough, one of the later (perhaps the last?) steps to enlightenment is the realization that your sense of self, or ego, is also an illusion — that instead “you”, like everything, are just part of the universe and one of its infinite ways of expressing itself. I’m guessing this level of enlightenment usually can only be achieved — if at all — by a monastic who dedicates their every waking hour to meditation and all forms of “mindfulness” (i.e., staying present with whatever it is you’re doing and what’s happening around you). That or an intense psychedelic experience.

I have found the practice of meditation to be directly applicable to every area of my life. Not only am I quicker to stop myself from getting involved in a thought pattern — a boon for an overthinker like me — but the patience and focus it takes to maintain attention on something as mundane and monotonous as the breath has strengthened my discipline in all things I wish to achieve.

Today We Celebrated My Mom’s Birthday

As I said in my toast, I won the lottery when it comes to moms. I can’t imagine that anyone in the world feels as loved and cherished by their mom as I do; and indeed all too many don’t. If there’s any flaw in our relationship, it’s perhaps that she loves me too much…and that’s a burden I’m happy to bear. Happy birthday, Ma!

My Best New & Old Habits

I don’t always succeed at all of these, but I mostly do; and when I fail, I forgive myself and pick them back up again.

  • Waking up at 5am

  • Working out 2-3 times/week

  • Meditating every morning for 20 mins

  • Cooking nearly every meal

  • Reading before bed

  • Using a travel mug when buying coffee

  • Playing piano and learning new songs nearly every day

  • Clearing out my phone and computer files monthly

  • Posting a blog daily

  • Using accounting software to keep track of my income and expenses

  • Keeping my email inbox close to zero

  • Making my bed every morning

How Playing 1-Minute Speed Chess Improved My Game and, By Extension, My Life

One of the few assets the smartphone has brought to my life, since I first got one around 2012, is reconnecting me with the game of chess.

As the son of immigrants from the former Soviet Union — a nation steeped in the game — chess played a large role in my childhood. I studied it, played in tournaments, even took my commitment so far as to remain a virgin through high school.

And while I was relatively good (by no means a prodigy, but nevertheless a formidable opponent), the way I conducted my game was revealing of my flaws as a thinker (and, by extension, a liver of life) — namely, that I was stifled by a fear of risk.

Ever the perfectionist, when time allowed for it I would not make a move until I was absolutely satisfied that it was the best move I could make — or at least that it wasn’t a wrong move. My thought processes were marred by indecision and inaction, and ultimately my moves were often simply just safe.

When the iPhone presented an opportunity to pick this game up again in adulthood (with an app I could now play anytime I wanted, with anyone in the world), it became my main form of procrastination. But since one game could take forever if not limited by a clock, I quickly whittled down my preferred format to the shortest game you could play: 1-minute*.

Now I could squeeze in a game or two even while waiting on line at the post office. Which means I play a lot. In fact, I’ve now logged so many games in the past 7 years — exponentially more than in all my time playing as a kid, since back then I was limited by the need for an available board and an available opponent — that the sheer volume alone is one obvious cause for my improved playing. My brain’s memory now has such a large variety of moves and strategies and positions to call upon when I find myself in familiar territory.

But another major reason for my advancement is how the 1-minute constraint has affected my behavior.

(On the one hand it does make you form bad habits for sure: sometimes you make wild moves just to psych out your opponent and stump them long enough for their clock to run out — moves that in any other context would represent fatal blunders. Plus, growing accustomed to this pace makes you needlessly and dangerously impatient when playing non-speed chess with those who prefer to take their time.)

But — especially for an overthinker like me — there is a highly beneficial flipside. With time unrelentingly against me (every second literally counts), I am forced to rely on my gut instincts. Rather than picking the absolute best move, I make the move that feels best. And often I’m right and I surprise myself. Moreover, often it’s a better move than I would have made using the slow-thinking, non-intuitive (not to mention fearful, defensive, and self-preserving) part of my brain’s processor. Thus, I’ve grown more confident in my intuition and learned that I can depend on it.

I also have become far more adept at predicting my opponent’s next move, since responding right away can give me a real edge on the time. (Whereas in normal play there’s no special urgency in considering your opponent’s move before they’ve made it.) In essence, I’m using my opponent’s clock to make my move, rather than my own. Again, I am amazed at how good I’ve become at anticipating what they’ll do. I even tried a new feature that allows me to commit to my next move ahead of time so that my response is instantaneous, which I’m sure causes many players to wonder if I’m using some sort of cheat code.

Most important of all, these exercises in relying on intuition, committing to decisions, taking calculated risks — all with full confidence — have translated to every aspect of my real life. Expect nothing, but trust in yourself and have faith.

After all, worst case, even if I fail — even in real life — I can always play again.

*Really a maximum of 2 minutes, since each player gets 1 minute on the clock.

If You Want to Practice Mindfulness and Letting Go of Expectations, Try Shooting a Timelapse

I recently filmed a timelapse of the sunrise and I never felt more present.

Indeed, taking the time to watch and enjoy a sunrise alone is the epitome of mindfulness. But I discovered that shooting a timelapse on top of that adds a level of patience and hyper-focus that, I believe, heightens the experience.

Never before had I observed so closely the gradual changes in light or the movement of clouds. My constant adjustments to the exposure made me intimately aware of how slowly or quickly the atmosphere illuminated at different phases.

I also watched the changing sky with an unprecedented sense of excitement. As clouds formed magnificent shapes and rays of sunlight pierced through their openings, I delighted in how my next shot might turn out.

And yet, because I had predefined the parameters of each shot (one every 60 seconds), I had relinquished control over which frame of time would be captured. Moreover, I risked the likely possibility that not a single weather event would arrive to decorate the sky (and timelapses are relatively dull without constant changes in the scenery to indicate the passage of time).

But I had taken the effort to bring my camera out there and so committed myself to the next 5-6 hours at minimum (any less and not only would I miss the full range of transformation from day to night, but the resulting video would be so short as to end in an unsatisfying flash).

Ultimately, I learned that, like all things in life, it’s not the final product that matters so much as the process. I thought I had set out to create a cool video, but what I really did was get my ass out of bed at 4:30am…to closely watch the full sunrise from complete darkness, to gradations of magenta and orange, to the fiery sphere itself, to the bright blue sky…with no rush to leave.

I’ve orbited that thing 38 times to date, yet somehow this was the first time I offered her my full attention. But not the last.

A Practice in Over-tipping

Beginning a week ago around the time I started this blog, I decided to also commence a practice in over-tipping. I haven’t established the parameters for what this means yet, other than to give more than I normally would. And that’s really all that matters. Any life-improving endeavor only ever requires “more” than what feels comfortable to have its intended impact.

And that’s exactly my aim — to have an impact on myself. Although it feels nice to be generous, for me generosity is a secondary consideration. I’m also not looking to be treated with any special reverence, and indeed I haven’t been since starting this. Instead, it has everything to do with approaching the world with a sense of abundance.

My thinking is, ‘Maybe if I, in some small way, treat money as if it’s no object, then it will become less of an object.’ I may not be monetarily wealthy by most Americans’ standards, but if to some degree I behave and live like I am…what’s the difference?

So we’ll see what happens by the end of the year. If my added expenditures go unnoticed as hoped, then I will consider this experiment a success and look for more ways to open my pockets and more (seemingly precious) parts of myself, material or not, with the growing understanding that there is no scarcity, only abundance.

(If, on the other hand, the account books are looking tight come December, then it’s back to 20%.)

I Love Doing (My) Dishes

I have a dishwasher at home and I don’t even use it. I don’t find it all that convenient, since it still requires me to rinse dishes, carefully load them, and measure out detergent. Seems to me like that’s already most of the work of just doing them by hand.

Besides, as someone who lives alone, I rarely have enough dishes to warrant such a large draw on resources. And what if I need a dish or utensil or tool immediately and not after the hour or so that it takes to complete the cycle?

Plus, using a dishwasher robs me of that Zen-like sense of calm I get from washing the dishes myself. It’s one of those mindless, repetitive actions — like taking a shower or driving a car — that puts me in a relaxed, meditative state. And better yet, by the time I’m done there are no more dishes and my apartment is cleaner, so order has actually been restored in exchange for my meditation. Win-win.

In that sense, washing dishes also appeals to my love of efficiency. I recall an old roommate once giving me flak for only having done half the dishes after a party since I was waiting for the ones on the rack to finish drying before continuing.

“Why don’t you just dry them with a towel?” he suggested.

“Why would I waste a single ounce of effort on something that time will do for me for free?”

Indeed, time is our most precious resource, and I look for those rare opportunities when I can let it work for, rather than against, me. To that end, my usual routine is washing my last meal’s dishes while cooking my next. That way I’m neither just standing there and waiting for my food to be done nor am I in any particular rush, so I can let the food cook at exactly the delicious, less-than-hurried pace needed to complete the dishes.

Dish washing is also a great way to jump-start a more ambitious project that actually does put a drain on my limited mental energy. The dishes are an easy, low-hanging assignment to complete for a quick win. Yes, in a sense it’s a form of procrastination, but only ten minutes of it and now my getting-things-done momentum has begun, my mind is a little quieter, and the apartment is less cluttered — always an asset when taking on the big things.

Lastly, doing dishes puts a final bow on that feeling of accomplishment in having prepared myself a healthful meal: I cooked, I nourished myself with my delectable creation, and I cleaned up after myself. Like a real-life adult…like the ones you see in the movies.

But don’t ask me to do your dishes — you’re on your own.

My Daily Blogging Experiment So far

It’s been about a week since I started this daily blog, and so far my hopes for the impact of this new habit are being fulfilled.

I can’t tell you how therapeutic it is for a perfectionist like me to look at a blank screen every day and know that he has to fill it with something — anything — no matter what. Even if it’s not perfect. Because it definitely won’t be. There are so many creative projects that I drag out or delay because my vision for the finished product puts too much pressure on even beginning.

On the other hand, with this exercise I pretty much start with little idea of where I’ll end up, and so it’s more about the process. And yet I do strive to write coherently and to create something worth reading, so there is still a discipline involved.

I’m also getting to learn what’s on my mind and what my views of the world might be, since I am forced to upload my consciousness on a constant basis. Over time, I’m excited to see what comes up as I am left to scrape the far recesses of my thoughts to mine for new material.

Not least of all, it will be great to see my writing improve in both quality and efficiency as I gradually dwindle down this unending production line to its most necessary components.

School of Actual Life

I fantasize about a school that prioritizes the learning of real-life skills over our current study of modern civilization, the latter of which in no way addresses how to be a living organism on this planet.

I imagine there was a time when parents and teachers taught children how to build shelter, what’s okay to eat in the forest, proper courtship techniques, etc. Today most of us learn none of these things. If we did, there might be no such thing as, say, “homelessness”, since in theory anyone who knows how to shield themself from the elements using natural materials could always have a home.

Instead, we outsource life skills through the use of money, an arbitrary concept — and thus a shaky foundation — on which to rely. If money stops being a thing, or you just run out of it, you’re in deep trouble if you’ve invested your education only in the acquisition of money rather than directly in the knowledge and skills it replaces.

I myself am the product of modern education: I can balance a checkbook, I’ve read some literature, I can tell you who the first president was of this thing we’ve agreed to call the “United States”. But I don’t know how to tell if a melon is ripe, I don’t know how to tie a knot, and it took me 35 years to only begin to know how to talk to a woman. But I’m trying (on all fronts). The more of these real-world skills I learn, the more capably I can exist on this planet…and the less money I need to do it.

Three of the Best Expensive Purchases I've Made for My Apartment

1) A Japanese-style bidet. Heated seat, heated water, adjustable spray, dryer — these are just the main features. I’ve never felt cleaner. Enough said.

2) A robot vacuum. My floors are always spotless. I don’t even have dust bunnies under my bed. I can’t tell you how nice it feels to lay down on your area rug like it’s just another sleeping surface. And I never had to lift a finger.

3) A projector. The other night I had a few people over, and we decided to browse Netflix until we settled on A Clockwork Orange. Not a lot of people our age have experienced that film on the big screen. But we have.

My New Food Challenge

I’ve instituted a new challenge to myself whenever I go grocery shopping, which is to buy only single, unprocessed ingredients with as little packaging as possible.

This not only forces me to shop healthier, but also to cook more (i.e., to do all the processing myself), not to mention reduce waste in the form of unnecessary packaging.

In some cases it’s not possible — or at least not practical — for me to entirely uphold this endeavor, as in the example of the sunflower butter I bought last night. I don’t have the tools to process sunflower seeds into butter, nor am I able to transport it to my apartment without the plastic jar that it comes in (though admittedly, I’m sure there are some conscientious grocery stores out there that would allow you to bring your own jar to fill). Still, at least when I read the ingredients on the label, it just said “sunflower butter”. So I can check off the ‘single ingredient’ box.

On the other hand, I picked up a variety of fruits and vegetables and threw them directly into my basket without even bothering to first place them into those thin plastic produce bags since I didn’t see the point. All boxes checked. That felt good.

When I purchased two avocados for the purpose of making homemade guacamole, I contemplated how there had been occasions in the past — albeit rare — when I had bought prepackaged “guacamole”. When you consider just how unforgivingly perishable avocados are, the idea of some unchanging mass sitting in the aisle for god-knows-how-long and masquerading as food is just gross. Not to mention that each avocado I bought was about $3.50*…so whatever’s in that prepackaged guacamole that doesn’t cost much more can’t be even close to real. Perhaps most importantly, unlike the fresh guac I later made at home, it’s not even delicious.

So really the only point to buying something like that is to save time and effort in making something tasty and nutritious. Which is kind of like letting an oncoming bus run you over to save yourself the time and effort of jumping out of its way. Except, time and effort has still been expended on that lifeless ‘food’ product — in the form of the work spent in earning the money to buy it.

In the end, when I arrived home and unbagged all of my purchases and laid them out on my kitchen counter, I felt a strange swelling of pride and was almost compelled to take a photo of my “catch”. Kind of in the same way that people photograph and post pictures of their brunch. Except in my case it was just a table full of ingredients — the promise of something. But at least it was something that would be created by me.

*Morton Williams, my local grocery store, is extremely pricey…but also, conveniently, a block away.

Learning How to Play a Song Takes Away Its Magic

I love learning how to play new songs. I’m always listening to music in my apartment, and inevitably something will come on that I can’t help but sing to, and I’m immediately compelled to drop everything and figure it out on the piano.

I usually start by looking up the chords online, and then I figure out a voicing on the instrument that’s close enough to the original while satisfying my impatience to start rockin’ now. Once I more or less have it down, I am in heaven, playing and singing as if discovering the song for the first time.

But that novelty soon wears off. Is this song really only the same three chords over and over, including the chorus? Has it been the whole time?

When we’re listening to music we don’t normally break it apart into its singular units. We’re just experiencing it pure, without analysis — that’s part of its joy. But learning to play a song is like opening the curtain in the Wizard of Oz to reveal that this grand spectacle is little more than a person pulling on a few common knobs that we’ve probably seen before a million times. The illusion fades, and we can never see the magic the same way again.

And yet, there is still magic there. The fact that the musician, through sheer passion and emotion and being tapped into the way sounds can affect our brains and our hearts, was able to cook something so divine from such few and simple ingredients...well, there’s beauty in that.

Things I’ve Learned from Books

I usually only retain about one thing from the best books I’ve read. It’s not always the overall thesis — sometimes it’s just a random, thought-provoking idea that makes me perceive the world in a new way; other times it’s an actionable concept that I incorporate into my life.

The accuracy of my memory may not be reliable as far as details, but the general points remain the same.

Here are some of those things I’ve learned from books that I can call to mind at the moment:

  • Cooked by Michael Pollan: This is what I’m currently reading, and Michael Pollan is probably my favorite writer at the moment. His books are endlessly fascinating and educational, so I will be including many of them in this list. So far the key thing I’ve learned from this book is that cooked food is (usually) more nutritious than raw food. This simple idea alone has already inspired me to cook more, something I’d been putting off for far too long due to laziness and lack of experience.

  • The Omnivore’s Dilemma by Michael Pollan: I read this nearly a decade ago, yet one of the throwaway musings that somehow sticks in my mind is that we’re all ultimately eating the sun. (This is because plants convert the sun’s energy into food by way of photosynthesis, and — whatever you’re directly putting into your mouth — plants start at the bottom of that chain.)

  • In Defense of Food by Michael Pollan: The most reductive we can get as far as a healthy diet is: 1) eat food, 2) not too much, and 3) mostly plants.

  • How to Change Your Mind by Michael Pollan: A similar thing is happening in the brains of people on psychedelics as in those of people meditating, which is essentially a quieting of the area where what’s thought to be the “ego” lies.

  • Sapiens by Yuval Noah Harari: — Pre-agricultural humans probably only worked an average of about 4 hours a week. My recollection on the number he mentioned might be off — maybe it was 4 hours a day, or something else — but the same lesson that I took away applies: it’s unnatural for humans to work* as much as we do in modern society, especially when that “work” has no direct correlation to our survival or happiness. This concept has relieved me of any guilt I might have felt for not working as much as other people and, on the contrary, has inspired me in my pursuit to work as little as possible. Ideally, my time should be spent only in meeting the needs of my survival, and then after that only in doing the things I love and having a hella good time.

    *As in, for money. If it’s, say, to build a shelter or create something for your own enjoyment, that’s a different thing entirely and exactly where one’s efforts should be going.

  • Sex at Dawn by Christopher Ryan and Cacilda Jetha: Although this book usually serves as a manifesto for polyamory, for me the overall lesson was similar to the one I got from Sapiens, which is that prehistoric life (i.e., the natural disposition of the human animal) was probably very much an Eden, and so — in my desire to return to paradise to the degree that modern life allows — I should focus my efforts on little more than my survival and, the rest of the time, my pleasure.

These are just a handful of books that come to mind at the moment. I’m sure I’ll add to this list in future posts.